We've had an adventure, my boy.
Saturday, Momma went in for one last Non-Stress Test at a different hospital than normal ( we were out visiting our parents) and the doctor, who isn't Momma's normal doctor, noticed that your heart dropped a tiny bit after two contractions (out of about 25) and it was decided that Momma needed to go in to be induce that night, not the next as originally planned. The doctor was a butthead, Squiddy. She scared Momma, saying, "Well, you could go home and pack your stuff, but then you might deliver a dead baby." Daddy was furious. The doctor kept frowning at me when ever I'd ask any questions and always came back to the "dead baby" answer. Momma hopes that the mean doctor stubs her toe. Not even a small toe.. the BIG toe.
[The last picture Momma took of you in her belly.]
After that, Momma's head was frantic and scared, we raced back to Grandma Clark's house to pick up our things, and then I met up with my Mom and Dad. They drove you and me to the hospital while Daddy drove home and packed our hospital bags.
Momma was admitted to the hospital around 10:30 pm and had a mini breakdown when the nurse started putting hospital bands on my arm and had me wear a gown. She started an I.V. for "hydration" and so it began.
After Daddy got there, Grandma and Grandpa left and the doctor came in to talk about which drugs we'd use to start my labor. As it turned out, the ONLY drug they used to start labor was the one drug that momma and her Doula Michelle agreed was not okay to use. So, despite my concerns and seeing as it was our only option we got the doctor to agreed to use just a 1/4 of the regular dose (Momma is hypersensitive to drugs...) and do it vaginally (I'll explain that to you when you're older... you'll probably get grossed out. Sorry, love), just in case Momma had a bad reaction. We could remove the little bit of the pill and go from there.
Momma and Daddy got settled in for the night.
[Contractions started kicking in!]
Daddy dozed off on the little couch/bed thing and Momma was kind of wide awake. I was scared, excited, in pain and in love all at the same time.
The contractions started picking up around 1a.m. Ouch. Since your heart rate and my contractions were on the monitor (via an NST machine), we could see how you fared through the whole thing.
Ouch.
OUCH.
Momma looked at the monitor and she was having contractions all right. With Daddy sleeping like a rock a few feet away, Momma looked up and noticed she was again having a contraction.
And long one.
Still there.
And still.
And even now.
She also notcied that your heart rate was a bit low.
And then it got lower.
And then it dipped lower than Momm'as own heart beat and I freaked the eff out. I started shaking.
Suddenly, five nurses and a doctor RUSH into the room, have me scoot down, spread my legs, try to take the little bit of the pill out. They can't get it, so they flush me out with saline with the hope that it'll work. They then gave Momma a shot to stop labor.
And then we all watched.
Held our breath.
Watched some more.
....
The contraction went away.
Your heart beat went back to normal and Momma was as shaky as a leaf. The doctors explained that both you and I didn't like the drug (DUH!! Momma knew it before they even started the medicine, but tired to give the doctor the benefit of the doubt). The seven minute long contraction I had just had was cutting off your blood supply, hence the major drop in your your heart rate.
(Daddy slept through the whole thing.)
Squiddy, that was the scariest thing that happened the whole time I was pregnant with you. My heart is still scared, even though you're here sleeping next to me right now.
After that, Momma was told to get some rest. She still felt contractions, even though they were nowhere near as bad as the seven-minute meanie. Momma's back hurt. Momma was shaking from the shot still. The lady in the room next to us was SCREAMING bloody murder all night and it really made Momma feel so scared. It sounded like the poor woman was being held captive and tortured. Momma was already super sensitive to everything (the noise of the I.V. machine, Daddy's breathing, foot steps down the hall), and the pained yelling was enough to make me shake and cry and somewhat hyperventilate. It was traumatic. It was scary. It was the beginning of our story.
(to be continued tomorrow)
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But, because I'm a lover, not a fighter, here's a picture of what the
little man was doing while I wrote this. ;)
Oh Steph! I can't believe how mean that doctor was. They should not say things like that to any pregnant lady. Glad you all made it through. He's adorable :)
Posted by: Michelle | 06/24/2011 at 04:42 PM
Congratulations! the delivery is over! woohooo!! enjoy your sweet little bundle of joy! xox
Posted by: NATALEA KANDEFER | 06/24/2011 at 04:45 PM
I've been looking forward to hearing how it went...I felt so much anger when I read what the doctor said to you. What on earth was she thinking? I'm so glad that despite all the scares you had that Roman is sleeping next to you, safe and sound. So, so happy for you and Dustin. <33
Posted by: Caitlin | 06/24/2011 at 04:46 PM
I cant believe what that doctor told you!!! What a horrible person, that is the last thing they should be telling any patient! I'm so appalled. I feel awful that you had to go through that with your little guy. :(
I was beside a screamer when I was trying to have my baby, and holy terrifying batman! I mean, I know they have to get a baby out, but crap, its unnerving.
Posted by: Miranda | 06/24/2011 at 04:46 PM
Your words gave me chills... what a story!
Posted by: Dessiree | 06/24/2011 at 04:57 PM
as happy as I am that your beautiful son is here, I want to punch your doctor. There are so many other ways they could have expressed their concern and that...well, that shouldn't have even been the last.
Posted by: Lisa Gutierrez | 06/24/2011 at 04:58 PM
Wowwwwwww crazy!! :D He's one lucky boy to have such a brave mama!!
Posted by: Amanda | 06/24/2011 at 05:36 PM
Congratulations!! I'm a new reader of yours, and I just wanted to say I love your writing and Congrats on your baby boy!! :)
Posted by: Diane | 06/24/2011 at 06:13 PM
Woah. This is intense. I'm so glad that everything turned out ok (and thanks for the proof). He's beyond precious. I love the little slope of his nose.
Posted by: Heather Lynne | 06/24/2011 at 06:56 PM
he is so precious. i cannot believe how insensitive a DOCTOR can be. they're there to save lives not take them and make you terrified. that is not ok. i'm sorry you had to put up with that but i'm so happy for you that you can now finally hold your precious baby boy.
Posted by: Larissa | 06/24/2011 at 08:23 PM
People like that shouldn't be doctors - seriously what were they thinking? I'm so glad it's over with. Squiddy is perfect and he's so lucky to have such an amazing Mom and Dad. I am so happy for you and wish you all a very happy, healthy, long life together. You deserve nothing but the best. Congratulations!
Posted by: Mary Ann | 06/24/2011 at 08:25 PM
That doctor is a complete douche canoe. YOU, however are AMAZING! Those traumatic feelings of fear you still remember so clearly now will fade away before you know it - so look forward to that and enjoy that little guy. He's gorgeous.
Posted by: Julie | 06/25/2011 at 06:39 AM
I can't believe that doctor said that to you! What's with those people trying to scare you?
What is your instagram name?
And he is absolutely perfect. <3
Posted by: Jamie | 06/25/2011 at 07:00 AM
He's just perfect! Can't wait for the next update!
Do you have instagram?
Posted by: Cait | 06/25/2011 at 08:09 AM
So scary, but such a precious little reward! He is incredible.
Posted by: Sara | 06/25/2011 at 08:45 AM
ADORABLE! We have all been waiting in anticipation for your bundle of joy, and now that he's so precious! Congratulations! Jenn
Posted by: Jennifer | 06/25/2011 at 11:32 AM
This is amazing and I can't believe but anyway I would like to congratulate you!
Posted by: Geraldine | 06/27/2011 at 04:10 PM
Amazing! How did you do that with all by yourself? Well Congrats to you!
Posted by: Fretzie | 06/29/2011 at 09:12 PM
Oh my goodness how scary love!!!!! That must have been the most INTENSE contraction!!!!
Posted by: Kamika | 06/30/2011 at 07:49 AM