I used to be spunky. I used to be really happy and joyous and full of glitter. Let me clarify, it's not that I'm NOT happy now (because life is pretty good at the moment), but I just don't feel light anymore. Life feels heavy. I MISS being spunky. Being totally optimistic and bubbly and carefree. I miss our college days of being with Dustin most of my waking hours. I love being a Mom to my amazing, precious boys, and a Wife to Dustin, but it feels like some of me has been misplaced.
One of Dustin's cousins has a fiancé whom I really adore. She's younger than I am by a handful of years and you can just see the glitter in her eyes. The second time we all hung out, it hit me, she is how I was. She energizes my glitter batteries and makes me feel like "me" again. Her smile and energy and presence. Jhst like who I once was, only blonder. Where have I gone?
Do any of you know what I'm talking about? I can't be the only one that misses myself. Maybe I miss my youth. Maybe life is starting to wear on me. Maybe things and people have broken my spirit a bit. Maybe I'm not as strong as everyone thinks I am.
How do I get my glitter back, guys?