Wellllll.. it's the middle of February, folks. I've had this post outlined in my planner since the end of December and I'm just now sitting down to type it out. (Roman, please keep napping!)
Every year I like to spend January as a sort of prep month for the year that lay in front of me. Nothing exciting happens in January - it's the cool-down month for us. We eat better and take all the decorations down and go through all of our old goodies to make room for the new that we received during the Christmas season.
My friend, Lacy, has been doing this thing where she picks a word of the year, something to represent the feel and goals that she sets for 365 days that are to come. (This year she picked the word Genuine, here.) I LOVE this idea and have been doing it for a few years (I think - don't make me search).
Last year I chose the word Courage. I was overcoming minor postpartum anxiety and the Christmas season was a little intense, but we powered through. Courage was the perfect word for me. I feel like I really, REALLY did a good job with it, in most cases. I planned out one thing per month to do, and I did so-so on THAT, but the courage thing was the big goal. This was the first year in MANY years that I didn't collapse into Dustin's arms a blubbery mess at least once a week because I was scared of dying. Seriously. That has been my life for the past seven years since my first remission. I know that this accomplishment was not all on me, though. In fact, I know that most of it was because of Roman. Because of him, my outlook changed. My eyes finally opened. Something about having this child in my life has made me strong, stronger than ever before. Maybe it's the distraction of daily life with a toddler. Maybe it's something far more magical. Whatever it was, I'm so very thankful. Thank you for giving me courage, my sweet Roman.
This year, I want to continue Lacy's (and now my) tradition of choosing a word of the year. I've thought a lot about it and this year's word is:
- Any of the various structures that make up the skeleton in most vertebrates.
- Essence, Core <cut costs to the bone>
- The most deeply ingrained part : Heart —usually used in plural <knew in his bones that it was right>
- The basic design or framework
I want the bones, folks. Everyday bones. Long term bones. I am a planner to the core of my being and nothing makes me feel more reassured, more confident, happy and at peace than having things, the important things, framed out. Structured. Solid.
I will be posting my plans all this week, so be sure to check back!