This Momma fears a few things that I'm sure EVERY Momma fears. I don't think that it matters if you're carrying your first baby or your sixth. I think adoptive Moms fear the same things, too. For me, the fear comes from how much love is in my heart for this little boy. We think:
"Will there be something medically wrong with this sweet baby that I'm growing?"
"Will I know that something is not right by the look on the doctor's face during an ultrasound?"
"Will something go wrong with me or the baby or just will it just be fate that this little guy is born before he's finished developing?"
I swear, I still celebrate every time I pee and the t.p. is nice and clean and normal. The memory of what I went through when I had my miscarriage will never leave my mind. Ever.
With this sweet baby, the boy that kicks and squirms and is already perfect in my eyes, I am even more afraid because he's growing into a REAL baby. When you lose a baby at 9 weeks, I don't think it's quite the same as experiencing what could happen at 27 weeks. And the thought that I might carry little Squid (Real mame: Roman, "Squiddy" forever in my eyes, though!) to term and find that after a long 9.5 months and a crazy, painful and emotional birth, there is something that still might threaten his well being, well, it kills me.
Women who have to go through that, who have to watch their sweet babies fight for their tiny lives, those women are total heroes to me.
Here are three bloggers that, in my eyes, deserve Superwomen capes and the sweet babies that put Arnold's strength to shame:
Kayla Aimee (who is ADORABLE) from My Life Is Only Slightly Neurotic has her sweet baby girl, Scarlette at 25 weeks. I found her blog a month or so ago through somebody that I follow on Twitter (can't remember who!) and I've been a daily reader ever since.
Little Scarlette and her Momma, Miss K.A. are two tough chicks. When I was 25 weeks and convinced that Squid would be born any day, K.A.'s blog got me through. She was inspiring and Scarlette's fight kept hope in my heart in case anything were to happen.
K.A. is raising money for The March of Dimes on her blog and is a bit away from her goal of $1,860. She's got 25 more days to reach her goal and if you'd like to help her, click HERE.
Keep going, Little Scarlette! We're all rooting for you, darling girl!
Robbie is half of the team that makes up a little blog called A Story of Two Moms. When her partner, Trina, became pregnant with TRIPLETS(!) through I.V.F., they were in for a ride! Trina had terrible pregnancy sickness, but because she kicks ass, she delivered 3 amazing little boys at 34 weeks! The tiny gentlemen are: Dexter, Linus and Simon.
Within Little Linus's first week of life, it was discovered that he had some heart problems and what was called critical Aortic Stenosis which means that his aortic valve no longer opens completely, so your heart must work much much harder to eject blood and get the required amount to and fro in his little body. (source)
Robbie has a Paypal donation button on her blog and asks that if you can't donate, you give blood. Donated blood has saved Linus many times so far in his short life and even I can say that I've benefited from donated blood. (It's kind of gross to get a transfusion, but boy it helps those in need feel like a million bucks once they receive some fresh red stuff!)
Just keep swimmin', Linus! Your brothers need you to stay strong and eventually come home so that you can pick sides later on in life! Two against one is oh-so-much-fun (says the oldest of three children)! ;)
Last but not least...
Kate from Getty Owl has a BEAUTIFUL baby girl who, at the age of 4 months, was diagnosed with SMA1. Spinal Muscular Atrophy is a genetic disease. Babies with SMA are born with very little muscle tone and develop weak muscles. They experience feeding and breathing problems as the weakness gets worse over time. There is no cure or treatment for SMA. The lifespan for sweet babes with SMA1 is seldom longer than 2 – 3 years.
Baby Getty is a rockstar! Her eyes are sky blue and her smile could beach a whale.
One of her many friends contacted me asked if I could share the following link with you guys:
The Damnwells are releasing a sweet lullaby album called Sweet Water Child--Lullabies for Getty today with all of the benefits going towards The Getty Owl Foundation and finding a cure for SMA1. Everybody loves music. And everybody loves feeling the warm fuzzies that helping squishy babies brings.
Now, if you're lucky enough to be one of those Mommas who is having a "normal" pregnancy or is blessed with one (or twelve!) healthy babies, jump up and down! Be thankful! Celebrate! Give the smooshiest hugs you can, because girl, you're lucky! We're lucky! Most pregnancies and babies come to fruition perfect as peach pie, but it's really hard not to worry about the "what-ifs". Let these blogs give you hope and comfort just in-case, goodness forbid, anything happen.
GOTTA HAVE HOPE!
Sending mountains of love and good thoughts to the Mommas and babies above and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you all, as well! Hoping you'll do the same for me and Mr. Squid!
Love you guys,